Peak Anxiety (so far)

I've had a dual diagnosis of depression and anxiety for decades. I think the meds I have serve me pretty well. I'm rarely too deep into these two monsters. The last few days I've have major anxiety in a way I haven't experience it ever before.

I am completely anxious. I am afraid. Not just tense of apprehensive but afraid. Afraid as in, I smell a little differemt. I am frightened. There are days I've taken a single Klomopin for anxiety. Now I'm washing down two with a glass of wine. (Not recommended, btw).

The Klonopin works well. When I take two in an evening, and certainly when I take two with a glass of wine, I'll wake up with a complete loss of memory; just a black hole. Can't drive that way.

I don't know what I feel so frail and frighted about.